Friday, May 11, 2012

Maybe.....

"There is no hope for OC guys rey... it is a joke that you want to apply."
"Yep, our condition is truly pathetic... The competition is tremendous, and seats are scarce."

"Reservation too doesn't help as much as you think... competition is gobbling up everything."
"But it is better than being in General Quota right? I mean, you still have an unfair advantage"


These were a few points of discussion outside the NIMS library the other day, where I was taking a break from my books with my colleagues Rajesh, Sridhar and Ram Murthy. In fact, I think this discussion is universal among students, whether they are preparing for UG or PG entrance, or applying for govt. jobs.

"కానీ మీ పరిస్థితి చాలా మెరుగు సుమా !" said an old man, sitting next to the Badam tree, shocking us out of the discussion.

"It is easy to comment from the outside Sir, not so easy when you are actually in the line of fire" Sridhar retorted back.
All of us seemed to subconsciously support Sridhar.

"Sorry that I was interrupting, but I still do stand by what is said. I am Ramana. I  underwent a 2-D Echo and am waiting for my son, when I overheard your conversation. I hope you don't mind" said the old man in flawless english. 

The old man looked very organised, educated and had an aura that charmed me in a way I cannot explain.

We had formal introductions, and told him we were medicos preparing for PG entrances. Rajesh tried to explain to Ramana garu, the various difficulties students face, due to reservations, lack of seats, and the privatisation of medical education.
"I do understand the gravity of the situation you people are in... but have you thought of a solution?" Ramana garu asked. What he didn't know was he had opened a can of worms in our heads.

"There is no solution! The only plausible solution is to quash caste based reservations, and bring in reservations based on the economic strata of students. This will give a fair advantage to people who are truly backward." said Ram murthy. "This will see to it that a Minister's son, who hails from a scheduled caste, is not given an unfair advantage over the son of a poor pujari, who is a brahmin by birth. " 

"Yep, but is it possible practically murthy? The BJP govt tried something similar a few years back, to introduce a concept of economically backward classes, but BJP was kicked out of power." said Sridhar.

"I don't agree. BJP lost power because of it's inefficiency to control corruption in it's own ministers." I said, opening my lips for the first time.

"Let us not really drag politics into this, because you cannot hope that political decisions, which are very improbable to change, might give you a solution. What are your alternative solutions?" asked Ramana garu. His question drew an obvious blank on all our faces.

"Your situation is a lot better than what we faced. The chance of quality education was rare in the past, when we were students. But do you know what was the advantage we had?"
"We were more ambitious and confident of our lives than today's youth. God has been replaced by dissatisfaction as the only Omnipotent and Omnipresent entity that today's youth knows.... It is indeed a unfortunate fact."

"You cannot change politics, you can only hope to by doing your duty of casting your vote to an eligible candidate, without being influenced by his caste, or his political party.
You cannot change the system, you can only hope to change it by becoming a part of it, by joining the civil services.

But there is always one thing you can do.
Strive to work harder without complaining of the 'unfair' advantage somebody else has. Swami Vivekananda said that 'all that is impossible is just an illusion'. So, if you think you have missed your PG seat because of unfair reservations, push yourself to the limit by working hard to cover the gap created by those reservations. Remember, the strongest steel is forged in the hottest furnace."

"ఎందుకీ నిస్పృహ ? కదిలే భూమి ని ఆపే శక్తీ నీ లోపలే వుండగా ?"


Ramana garu then took our leave as his son had come to take him home. But he did leave us thinking for a long while...

Are we letting disappointment and despair take over our mindset? 

Are we , as the youth of this nation, not supposed to take up more responsibility about our lives? 

Maybe whining about how unfair the country has been to you is just an excuse we use to hide our inability to deal with our lives....

Maybe....

Friday, April 27, 2012

Directionless! - దిక్కుమాలిన...

దిక్కులన్నీ పెక్కటిల్లే అగ్నినై వెలగాలనీ....
కలలు కన్నాను ప్రగతికై, నా కలలు పండాలనీ....
కళ కైనా , ప్రతిభ కైనా  అదృష్టమే మూలం ...
కానిదేవ్వారు మార్చగలరోయ్ , కాని కల విలువ శూన్యం ...

దిక్కులన్నీ పెక్కటిల్లే అగ్నినై వెలగాలనీ...
కలలు కన్నాను ప్రగతికై, నా కలలు పండాలనీ....
దిక్కుమాలిన లోకం లో దిక్కు లేదోయ్ ప్రతిభ కి ....
కలలను నేను తుడిచివేసా , కడుపు నిండాలని....

దిక్కు మాలిన - Telugu - adj. for something that lacks a proper direction.
Slang- used as an abuse for purposelessness. 

Friday, April 13, 2012

A Dreamer's letter to his Dream.

Hi Sweetheart,
I am missing you a lot.... You would've guessed it coz it is not entirely normal for anyone to be awake at 4:45 a.m., leave alone start writing a letter.

But I have no other way to express myself to you... We don't meet up as much as we used to in the "good old days". Besides, a letter helps me write all that I'd normally be unable to say to you. A lot of things that take a "U" turn as soon as they reach my tongue. Most of the times to avoid saying things that are true, but might hurt you.

We've known each other from a really really long time, and a major chunk of my best moments in life was with you. I know you are married to Sleep, but I don't really get along so well with him... I am more of the "insomia-liking" types myself. I am jealous of sleep for the exact same reason. And I know you are busy with all the travelling these days, but I really wish you could squeeze me into your schedule.

Well, don't bother about me, take proper care of yourself out there.
Ever yours,
Abhishek.

P.S: I know I should've called, but I didn't want to disturb you so late in the night :P

Thursday, March 29, 2012

अहो गुणवती भार्या , भांडा वित्तम न याचते !

The Saint and his pupil.

Once upon a time, not very long ago, lived a Saint named Alpaanada at the foot hills of the Himalayas.

He used to train disciples in history and philosophy and was pretty well known in the Yogi academic circles. He had a wife called Sundari, who was famous for her big mouth.

Sundari used to keep nagging her husband about the poor quality of life in the Himalayas, but Alpaananda, true to his name, was quite happy with his life.

One day, one of his students, Pungavaabhirama, invited him over to his house for lunch. Pungavaabhirama wanted to make fun of Swami Alpaananda for his inability to deal with his wife's nagging.

So, Pungavaabhirama made his wife, Komaalangi a deal."Tomorrow, when the Guruji arrives for lunch, I will pretend to be abusing you. I want you to ignore my abuses, and pretend as if I am incharge of the house. If you do this, I shall give you money enough to buy the Kantthabharana (Necklace) you've been asking since long."

Komalaangi took a few minutes to think about the offer and Said, "Ok, I shall pretend as you say, and I will also prepare the Best meal for your Guruji. But Remember, I will only put up with this until 100 abuses!"

The next day, Alpaananda took his wife's permission and reached Pungavaabhirama's house just before lunch time.

Pungavaabhirama greeted him and shouted "Komalaangi, you lazy donkey, come here and offer the guest some water to wash his feet!", and proudly grinned at his Guru.
Alpaananda smiled nonchalantly.

All through the Lunch session, Pungavaabhirama kept abusing his wife, and tried to show his Guru that He was the man of the house. He then shouted again, "Where is the Dal (a main course dish in India) , you lazy monkey?!"

Komalaangi, who was really angry by now, was keeping calm because of her greed for the money to buy herself a Kantthabharana, was silently counting her Husband's abuses.
She realised that Pungavaabhirama had exhausted his 100 abuses, and was about to warn him after serving him Dal from the earthen pot she was carrying.

Pungavaabhirama, who had noticed the Guruji's indifference to his actions, saw his wife returning from the kitchen and said "Make it fast you sloth faced woman!"
Komalaangi lost her temper, and crashed the earthen pot into her husband's head, and said, "Now, Give me my money, you useless man"

Alpaananda, who was none the wiser about his pupil's deal with Komalaangi, smiled and said " अहो गुणवती भार्या , भांडा वित्तम न याचते !"
"I am so fortunate to have a wife, who is truly a treasure of values, since she has broken many pots on my head, but never asked me to pay for those pots!"

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

We Could Fall....

What is worse than a forest guide mauled by a tiger?

I always was morbidly afraid of snakes. And never thought I would realise that a far more deadly predator existed... This predator was more close to us than any of the so called wild beasts... He existed within us.

The video of LTTE Prabhakaran's son's killing by the SriLankan Troops is another example of how low humans could fall!


I can never understand why the incident ever happened. Was the 12 year kid a threat to national security? Was he a terrorist? was he a part of whatever his father had done???
And I don't want to understand either.
We do hear people saying "You can't fall any further!".
But incidents like this one show us the truth... That WE COULD FALL...
We could keep falling as long as we wanted to..

The worst part is that this event will fade away into oblivion... :(

I am editing this post  after almost one year of first publishing it to thank the journalists whose work has now brought international focus to this issue again.

I was right when I said that the event will fade away into oblivion... I truly hope that this time it won't...

I can't even say "Rest in peace" Balachandran... I can just hope for it... :(

Monday, January 23, 2012

మతం.

Accidentally stumbled upon a website that promoted conversion to a particular religion... Was shocked to see many websites of almost all religions like that on google.
Felt very bad and had a sudden sense of aversion to "religion" and wrote this...


మతం మతం మతం....
పిచ్చి పట్టిన కుక్క నోట పలికిన తప్పుడు పాఠం .
స్వార్ధ
కలుషిత మనసులు కప్పుకున్న పటం .

హిందువుని కాను, మహామ్మదీయుడిని కాను , కాను క్రైస్థవుడను నేను.
మతొన్మాదం
అంటే మంది పడే మామూలు మనిషిని నేను.

నా
లాంటి నవ యువతను , నీ తరమా ఆపడం?
నువ్వు
చేసిందల్లా చరిత్రలను చెరపడం.
మతం
మతం మతం.....

Saturday, January 21, 2012

God is an Underdog.

"God is an Underdog". This is exactly why I love Him so much!

Born and brought up in an orthodox Hindu family, I was always the insubordinate kid. My Father, with whom I share a beautiful friendship, let me have my way.
All along my college days, I was known for my almost- atheistic principles and harsh criticism on fanatic religiousness. So much so, that my friends used to joke that if I ever went to a temple, God would die of a heart attack!
But there has been a change lately in my attitude towards Him. Maybe part of it is because of the amount of books I've been reading these days.
I still denounce the so-called GOD-men or "Babas" but am attracted to the spiritual happiness religion offers.
The beauty with which Ramadasu describes Lord Rama as Karunaapayonidhi (ocean of kindness) or the sensitiveness shown by Karunasree in Pushpavilaapakaavyam, I am sure, were works written with utmost spiritual peace and passion.

Today we live in a world where the battle between God and Science is rising again (and I thought that had ended after the mediaeval ages lol). The extent of the involvement of the Internet and social networking in our lives have taken this to a altogether new level of bitterness.
Being a medical man myself, I completely disagree with the Church of Scientology's principles. But I do realise the limitations of science itself. I do realise, if Science could explain everything, "Why do I have to still write that the major reason of many disorders as idiopathic? "

The level of bitterness against God, just because some religion somewhere has opposed progressive ideas, is astonishing. If it weren't "Fear of God", the world would've been a much worse place to live today!
"God" is the subconscious custodian of mankind. He has always been an excellent support to the man in despair, comfort to those in pain, and a reason for millions to believe in themselves.
Though I've never been the religious kind, I cannot even imagine my plight before my exams or when my near ones were ill - if there was no concept of God.

God bless late Prof Patel, my physics lecturer, who told me that God and Science were one and the same, citing a few parallels to envision his ideas. A few of them were :

  • Science for a long time said Matter and Energy are distinct. Religion said Man and God were Distinct. (- The Dwaita Philosophy)
  • Einstein proved e=mc^2 , that Energy and Matter were interconvertible . AadiShankaracharya laid down the doctrine of Advaitha, that Man and God are different forms of one another.
  • Science is now trying to prove that all Matter originated from a single burst of Energy called the Big Bang, through experiments of the Large Hadron Collider. Modern Spiritual Gurus like RamaKrishna Paramahamsa, and Swami Vivekananda have advocated that God created us in his own self and we all possess the spark of the divine within us.

Why did I take sides with God in this battle? most likely to be the same reason why I wanted Rocky to win over Apollo Creed, or why I wanted Leonidus to win over Xerxes, or why I wanted Refael Nadal to win over Federer in the 2008 Wimbledon.

Because I love Underdogs.