Me and the Library

Every 3 out of 4 people in this library are asleep (that includes the staff and me too). Am sitting in a private library where only people who are preparing for PG entrance(MEDICAL) and those studying for CA exams are allowed to join, at a small fee (500 rupees/ month - which is not even close to being small , keeping in mind that I am unemployed now).
My eyes refuse to stay open, and my body lurches forward to let me sleep on the table. I start having doubts that whether the muscles of the back and eyes are involuntary, when my brain sends a alarm.. which says "Abhishek!!!! Wake up!"...
Me and Libraries never got along well... I still remember going to the "central library" in my college only when I wanted to sleep , and my roommate nicknaming harrisons' textbook of medicine as "alprax".
The best part of the library is that I can sit and study in the huge garden in front of it. In this garden, I've seen squirrels, garden lizards, and Sparrows (I really thought they were extinct!!!)
The cool breeze, the softness of the grass, the smell of soil when the garden is being watered.... these are really small things that make me happy. I am looking at the line of ants trying to carry food. Am amazed at their industriousness. Don't they get lazy like people???
Don't ants bribe other ants to escape from work?
Don't ants make excuses to escape work?
Well, why is it that people hate work so much??? (Actually why do I hate studying so much?)
Suddenly I hear a very loud distinct voice from the skies above, "People don't work hard because I take special care of them. They are just following the rule of natural selection "survival of the meanest- lazy- buggers" .
My neck starts paining as I crane to try to look for the source of the voice, and I snap out of my beautiful dream into the sleepy library.

Whoever said that sleep is not contagious, has never been to a library.

Confusion.... a very worthy gift.

I do feel that "confusion" is one of the best emotions GOD has given us. Confused??? read on....
The reason why some people would actually read through this post is the same reason why I think confusion is a gift.

How many times in life were you confused and still successfully managed to do nothing about it???
Walt Disney once said “We keep moving forward, opening new doors, and doing new things, because we're curious and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.”

Why would a man be curious to know anything if he was perfectly clear about it? Curiosity is the flower that stems from the bud of Confusion! (Whoa.... that would make a good quotation... I am still confused how I managed to write that one!)
Confusion drives us.... we have an inbuilt mental mechanism which forces us to strive towards clearing confusion.
If Newton wasn't confused why the apple fell down instead of going up, or moving sideways ( I' the thought of an apple "falling sideways" lol ), he would've never discovered gravity.

A lot of people blame confusion for their mistakes. I hear from a lot of my friends who say "I was confused, and answered it wrong in the last moment". I think that they were not prepared enough for the test. They wouldn't be confused about a question they knew well.
(I bet you are never confused what your name is? lol)
The point I am trying to make here is that we should make use of confusion... ( i am really confused what i wanted to say!!!) We should let our instincts take over when we are confused and make efforts to clear it up. For when people work with a purpose, they unexpectedly achieve greatness.
When I started writing this post, I was confused as to why I am doing this instead of studying for my exam next month... I thought about it and came out with the answer "this was more interesting to me than what I was reading tonight(or was supposed to be reading :-P). "
And a lot of people are "confused" about choices.... One of my friends recently told me he was confused whether he should opt for internal medicine or general surgery for his post graduation. I said "Go with either one... If you like it in future, you will be happy that your confusion is cleared... If you don't like what you have chosen, you can always blame it on confusion."
I am really confused about a lot of things right now... like whether I should start studying and get a PG, or continue doing jobs, which have taught me a lot, and enjoy life right now.
I am also confused about my feelings for a girl... "Is it love, or just another infatuation I fail to recognise because of having a poor attention span ( I am ADHD, and I am loving it!!)
I will never finish this post if I start with that list. So I think i now understand why Michael J. Gelb said: "Confusion is the welcome mat at the door of creativity."

If you are even a little bit Confused about what I tried to convey in this post.... I will consider that I have made my point.

Vishvadaabhiraama vinura Vema

నీతి చెప్పినవాడి నోరు నొక్కేయ బడును,
నీతి లేని ఊర కుక్కల పనుల చేత ,
కుక్క లోని నీతి, రాజకీయాలలో లేదయ,
విశ్వదాభిరామ వినురవేమ .

చరిత్ర సృష్టించిన రామా రావు శ్రమ వృథా ఆయెను,
మహానుభావుల పరువు మట్టి లో కలిసెను,
తెలంగాణా పేరిట తెగులు పుట్టించెను రాజకీయం,
విశ్వదాభిరామ వినురవేమ.


I wrote the above lines in memory of the statues desecrated on tank bund by "anti-social elements".
It is really a shame that Hyderabad, once the city of dreams has been turned into a place where distasteful experiences have become a routine.
I really don't know if it is really the people of Hyderabad that are blinded by the lies of politicians.... or it is goons paid by politicians who have done these shameful acts.
how will such activities help in achieving telangana?
The telangana JAC is losing all its support from the people of hyderabad. because it is the common people who suffer when the JAC declares bandhs. Hyderabadi People now first think whether their daily life will be hampered by the agitations or not, whether buses will ply in city or not, whether they can go to work on time? whether their children can safely go to school and come back? ....and I AM NOT EXAGGERATING!!!
The parents whose children are studying in osmania university have sleepless nights worrying about their children.
Will there be any respite from this headache???
Will the Govt. do something to aid the common man?

Duet Movie Songs Lyrics

This is for my friend pavithra.... she too likes these songs... Who does'nt??? lol

Duet Movie Songs Lyrics
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Cast:Prabhu,Meenakshi
Music:A.R.Rehman
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Song- 1

Anjali Anjali Pushpaanjali
Anjali Anjali Pushpaanjali
Poovanti Padamulaku Pushpaanjali
Muddayina Pedavulaku Mohanjali
Kalahamsa Nadakalaku Geetaanjali
Kanaraani Nagavulaku Kavitaanjali

Ninna Daaka Nuvvu Nenu Iruvuram Evarani
Kammani Bandham Yilaa Telipenu Okatani
Kadalini Padu Vaanalaa Kalipina Madi Idi
Karigina Siri Mojula Kadha Yidi Naa Cheli
Edurugaa Toli Swapnam Tonikinadi
Edalo Madhu Kaavyam Palikinadi
Anjali Anjali Valapula Naa Cheli
Poovanti Padamulaku Pushpaanjali
Muddayina Pedavulaku Mohaanjali
Kalahamsa Nadakalaku Geetaanjali
Kanaraani Nagavulaku Kavitaanjali

Anjali Anjali Pushpaanjali
Anjali Anjali Pushpaanjali
Poovanti Padamulaku Pushpaanjali
Muddayina Pedavulaku Mohanjali
Kalahamsa Nadakalaku Geetaanjali
Kanaraani Nagavulaku Kavitaanjali

Kannula Sanketame Kalalaku Tolakari
Vennela Jalapaatame Valapuku Tadupari
Gundelo Sangeetame Kurisinadenduko Koyilapaate Yilaa Palikinadenduko
Cheluvugaa Eda Maare Maduva Nidha Ammavaasya Nisimaare Vennelagaa
Anjali Anjali Idi Hrudayaanjali
Nee Prema Laahiriki Pushpaanjali
Nee Gaanamaadhuriki Geetaanjali
Eda Dochu Navvulaku Natanaanjali
Kavi Aina Nee Madiki Kavitaanjali

Anjali Anjali Pushpaanjali
Anjali Anjali Pushpaanjali
Poovanti Padamulaku Pushpaanjali
Muddayina Pedavulaku Mohanjali
Kalahamsa Nadakalaku Geetaanjali
Kanaraani Nagavulaku Kavitaanjali

Anjali Nee Choopulo Vennela Velluve
Anjali Naa Voopirai Palikenu Pallave
Kannulo Nuvvu Lenide Kalale Raavule
Naa Madi Nuvvu Lenide Kavite Ledule
Telisenu Nuvve Naa Manasuvani
Mojuku Nelavayina Valapuvani
Anjali Anjali Valapula Naa Cheli

Anjali Anjali Pushpaanjali
Anjali Anjali Pushpaanjali
Poovanti Padamulaku Pushpaanjali
Muddayina Pedavulaku Mohanjali
Kalahamsa Nadakalaku Geetaanjali
Kanaraani Nagavulaku Kavitaanjali


Song-2

Naa necheli naa necheli ee dari ninka mooyake
naa gundelo ee gaayame inka aarakunda cheyake..

siluvane silalalane inka enni nallu moyane...
saluvakai cheluvakai inka entha kalamagane

|| Naa Necheli ||

Necheli nee poojalake naa manasuloni pranayam
naa cheli nuvu kaadante yeda regutundi vilayam
naa prema ne.. ee devataa... karuninchadaa.. batikinchadaa
amrutammilaa vishamainadaa kalanedu sila ainadaa...

|| Naa Necheli ||

naa kalai nuvu raakunte yeda vagachi vagachi pagile
naa jathe nuvu lekunte madi segala ragili pogile
oh nesthamaa.. naa praanamaa.. kala theeradaa oh mounamaa
idi nyayamaa.. idi dharmama.. premisthe adi neramaa...

|| Naa Necheli ||
siluvane silalalane inka enni nallu moyane...
saluvakai cheluvakai inka entha kalamagane

ADHD and my love life.......

For people trying to know about my love life.... "you are on the wrong page!"

I have ADHD (attention deficit hyperactivity disorder).... and ADHD has affected my life.
My personal life took most of the beating.
I should make myself clear that my job at NIMHANS taught me that... "ADHD is a disorder, it is not an excuse, it is a fact."

Now that i look back on my life i see that the string of brief but very passionate relationships i had, ended because i had ADHD.... or maybe because i didn't know i had ADHD. To recognise a problem is as important as finding its solution.
I think that most of my relationships were going pretty good... except that i would miss the non-verbal cues.... when i knew something, i would be so good in executing it.
For example, if i knew it was my girls' parents anniversary, i would get them a nice gift, do something they really might enjoy and make their day.... but the problem was ADHD prevented me from remembering those small things that i considered unimportant.
Also, i would let my girl down on so many occasions... because i genuinely forgot that i had an appointment.... i had to lie to cover up the fact that i had messed up..... and when these lies got caught, i got banged.
now that i know i have ADHD, i am trying to practise how to help myself against my ADHD.

I have missed the cues given by a couple of very good friends.... and as a result lost their friendship too.......
I'd like to apologise publicly to all those people i might have hurt.... sorry that i could never even recognise that i was hurting you.

Let me add that ADHD has also helped me a lot.... i can multi-task better than others... am good at various fields, am very good at something i do when i like it, and i can take any amount of stress!!!

But like spiderman says "It's my gift... it's my curse."