Thursday, March 7, 2019

Searching for Happiness in a textbook of Medicine

"Death is biologically, legally and literally an absolute and irreversible event"

Is it?

I was trying to read a chapter on sudden cardiac death in a textbook of Medicine when I came across the above definition ( pulled way out of context though). This set me off into one of my tangential thought processes that I have often been rightly accused of getting lost into.

I never finished that chapter, spending the next few days trying to make sense of death, hoping that trying to make sense of the end may eventually bring some sense into understanding Life.

For one, Death is an absolute event. The effect of Death on other people is not. The effect of death of different people at different times in life is also not absolute.

My grandfather passed away when I was a teen. His Death made me sad. I still missed him once in a while. This was vastly different from the time a year ago when I lost a close cousin. It left a huge void in me as though a part of myself had died. The sadness crept into most aspects of my life though I gig not let it show up. It truly is magical what all a smile can cover up.

What was so different between the two deaths? Both people were very dear to me. Both were very intelligent people I looked up to. The only difference was with my emotional maturity at the time of these two deaths in my life.

The past few years has changed me a lot. And as I look back a lot of it had to do with losing people in my life while I was realizing that Death is in fact absolute. But realizing this affect can help empower our own lives.

A lot of us have been at this point in our lives more than once but have chosen not to act because of the constraints of our mechanical lives and having to live up to the standards we are expected to.
Break Free of that monotony and you will see the beauty of life that exists out of your comfort zone. You don't have to take up an expensive adventure or travel to exotic places to be happy. Happiness is usually in the smaller things we do everyday. It exists in uncovering new knowledge. Knowledge is a very potent healer for grief. It takes your mind off things that are depressing and open up new thought portals.

I found happiness in a lot of places most people would would believe, like reading new poetry, repairing old instruments, "speaking" to a stranger using sign language, playing a tune on guitar, contacting absolute strangers across hundreds of miles on Ham radio, patiently looking at a great blue heron catching a fish, in walking for miles without a plan, in snapping pictures where most others never saw a picture. As long as there is something new to learn, i will never be empty.

Knowledge is endless, explore at least a lifetime of it.